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Published by CoyoteDKM on August 12th, 2010 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »No More Sunrises
http://iran.whyweprotest.net/news-current-events/21782-letter-fayah.html
A letter from Fayah:
“I love life. I love to laugh and be with my friends. There are so many books I want to read, movies I want to see, people I want to meet. I want to marry, to be a good wife and mother. I want to grow old with the people I love, to feel the sun on my face, to see the ocean, to travel.
My country is in a terrible state. People have no jobs. There is no money. People have no freedom. Women must hide themselves from the world, and we have no choices.
Our people–we are not terrorists. We hate terrorists. And that is what our government has become. They kill our people for no reason. They torture us in their prisons because we want freedom. They make our country look evil, they make our religion look evil.
We are fighting for our freedom, for our religion, for our country. If we do nothing while injustice abounds, we become unjust. We turn into the ones we hate.
I have to fight. I have to go back on the streets. I will make them kill me. I will join Neda, with my friends, and then maybe the world will hear us.
I never thought I would become a martyr, but it is needed. The more of us they kill, the smaller they become, the more strength the people will have. Maybe my death will mean nothing, but maybe it will buy my country freedom.
I am very sad that I will never be a mother, that I will never do the things I love, but I would rather die than do nothing and know that I am to blame for the tortures, the murder, the hatred.
Please tell the world how much we love life. That we are not terrorists. We just want to be free.”
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http://iran.whyweprotest.net/news-current-events/33625-update-fayah-found-her-martyrdom.html
Fayah Azadi June 23, 1986-August 2, 2009
I heartily wish I didn’t have to report this. I just found out that Fayah was one of the women who led the protests on July 30th at Neda Agha Soltan’s gravesite.
She was beaten severely by several Basij militiamen with batons, and struck repeatedly on the head.
Her friends carried her away from the cemetary to a friend’s house. She died on August 2nd, having never regained consciousness.
Fayah Azadi was 23 years old, a student at Tehran University, studying art. She was a talented painter, and a staunch supporter of democracy and women’s rights
Published by CoyoteDKM on August 18th, 2009 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »Why?
Part of me keeps wondering, asking myself, why I don’t just let this go, and take a break. I could be out, living obliviously, hanging with friends, dating, having a life. But I keep coming back to things like this. Why. I just watched this video, and this guy in it puts this so well.
http://www.kanoon-zendanian.org//Movies/witnesses.swf
There was part of the video, where what he said caught my attention, really stood out, and I had to go back and listen to it again, and then write it down, and now put it here.
This is what he says, near the middle of the video:
It seems to me that there are not enough and right words to describe the horrible scenes and sufferings. The condition, which many Iranians have been experienced during the last 25 years, had been created by the Islamic regime.
Only those who experienced those ordeals could sense the depth of this pain, degradation, and tribulation.
The experiences of imprisonment and torture will stay with the victim until the last breath.
Only survivors who tell and re-tell their story can endure their unbearable pain. By choosing to be silent, is nourishing a tumour, which will grow and destroy the victim from inside.
Silence means survival, and it means the permanent sheltering of injustice inside the victim. There is no tranquility in silence. If there is tranquility, it is in breaking the silence.
Why does this mean anything to me? I have never lived in Iran. Never been in their prisons, or experienced their torture. Why can’t I be silent?
This thread describes my connection. The hook that has taken me in. I am the one who posts down at the end of the first page, named Coyote.
http://iran.whyweprotest.net/news-current-events/21782-letter-fayah.html
Here is the summary. Fayah is a protester, an young Iranian woman, who went out to protest on July 30th. That day, they mourned for Neda, a protester who was killed 40 days earlier. This is what Fayah wrote a friend of hers before she went out to protest. She has not been heard from since the day she went out to protest, by the way.
A letter from Fayah:
I love life. I love to laugh and be with my friends. There are so many books I want to read, movies I want to see, people I want to meet. I want to marry, to be a good wife and mother. I want to grow old with the people I love, to feel the sun on my face, to see the ocean, to travel.
My country is in a terrible state. People have no jobs. There is no money. People have no freedom. Women must hide themselves from the world, and we have no choices.
Our people–we are not terrorists. We hate terrorists. And that is what our government has become. They kill our people for no reason. They torture us in their prisons because we want freedom. They make our country look evil, they make our religion look evil.
We are fighting for our freedom, for our religion, for our country. If we do nothing while injustice abounds, we become unjust. We turn into the ones we hate.
I have to fight. I have to go back on the streets. I will make them kill me. I will join Neda, with my friends, and then maybe the world will hear us.
I never thought I would become a martyr, but it is needed. The more of us they kill, the smaller they become, the more strength the people will have. Maybe my death will mean nothing, but maybe it will buy my country freedom.
I am very sad that I will never be a mother, that I will never do the things I love, but I would rather die than do nothing and know that I am to blame for the tortures, the murder, the hatred.
Please tell the world how much we love life. That we are not terrorists. We just want to be free.
I read this, and I immediately knew exactly how she felt. It gave me a moment of clarity myself, where I could put exactly how I feel into words. So this is what I wrote.
I have been posting in this board as an unregistered since the day it was created, and I posted in this thread up above in post #6, but I want to be known for who I am here. This letter has been eating at me. I wish I could take this letter and scream it into everyone in the world’s ears with a bullhorn, and then crawl inside their heads and make sure they were listening, that they understand.
Yes, she is courageous, but this is not about courage. It is about the only choices that she has. Three. Join them and become like them, hide, or make the right choice and do what she is doing. There are no other choices. There is no other option.
And she has made the right one, no matter how terrible, how awful, the consequences may be.
I know how she feels. Personally. I am not Iranian. I have never grown up in a repressive country. But I know, because I have experienced the same evil. I can relate.
I want to explain. It may not sound the same at first, but it is very similar.
When I grew up, every day when my father would come home, he would beat the shit out of my mother, or my sister, or my brother. Every night I would have to listen to them scream and beg and cry through the wall, and see the marks the next day in the morning. My mother, all of us actually, could not do or think or act in any way that was not approved by our almighty father, and what he approved changed each day and each minute as his whims changed. You could not keep up. He threatened to kill us, tormented us, you get the picture. That’s all you need to know.
Now, I say this is similar, because what Iran is going through is the same thing, only on a national scale. What happened just inside my one house, with all the neighbors and school teachers and people at the hospital looking the other way and ignoring, this same thing is happening in Iran only everyone in the entire country has to endure it! It is the same thing only on a massive level, blown up a millions times larger.
The effects are the same. The results are the same. The pain, I can understand. The scale, I don’t even want to think about the scale.
No one should ever have to live through this. Evil has the same face, everywhere it rears its disgusting head. They take what is good – love for the family, religion, and pervert it and twist it into something that is so evil no human mind could ever grasp or comprehend it until it is too late and they are surrounded by it.
I hope she lives. I hope she can have a family, and children, and live a happy life. I have never married, never had children, because part of me has always been terrified that some seed planted in me when I was a child is still there and will grow. Mostly I doubt it, but just that chance, that suspicion, keeps me from even trying. I would rather die than become like my father was. He would have made a natural basiji or Iranian prison interrogator.
So I know how she feels. She has no choices. Become like them, hide, or resist – no matter what the price.
I pray she doesn’t have to pay the price. But if she does, she is to be honored, and no one should ever for a single millisecond think that what she did was not worth it. Nothing any human being can ever do is as courageous and right as what she is doing. I am proud of her.
I’d like to scream that in everyone’s ears with a bullhorn, too.
Now, as I write this, I don’t even want to go back and re-read what I wrote there. Saying it once is enough. Read it, and you know why I feel the same way.
There is a part of the video I posted to and talked about at the beginning of this post, where the Iranian prison survivors talk about a special punishment their government had for them that they called being put “in the grave”. They were put into small wooden boxes, and made to kneel inside of them for months, listening to verses from the Koran blasted into their ears from loudspeakers. Verses from the Koran, and also, as one of the people said very briefly, they would broadcast other prisoners “interviews”. I knew what she meant from the look in her eyes. Those “interviews” were mainly screams and pleading. They would put those people in little boxes and make them listen to other prisoners screaming over loudspeakers for months and months.
I had to listen to my mother scream through a wall my entire childhood. Or my sister. Or my brother. I know, in a small way, what they went through. I have had a taste, however small it may be in comparison. So I know how they feel. My torture was not all day, it was mainly at night, and I was not beaten, or all the other hell they had to go through. It was partial, in comparison to what they went through. But I have had a taste.
No one should ever have to feel this way. The man is right. Keeping it silent, that is keeping an injustice secret inside of you, letting it eat away at you. Anyone who has seen it, come near it, even had a taste of it, if there is a shred of humanity in them, they cannot see it happen again and not want to join in with those who are suffering, and scream for it to stop with them.
So if I seem weird, obsessed, at least try to understand why. I couldn’t be different no matter how much I wanted to be. I can’t see the looks in their faces, hear the inflictions in their voices, and not be hooked. Part of it. With them.
To forget is to let it happen again. To ignore is to let it keep happening. To look away is to murder by inaction.
Published by CoyoteDKM on August 17th, 2009 | Filed under Personal | Comment now »The Hand
Makes me think of this blog, and makes me wonder if the whole reason the “blood on his hands” statement stuck with me was because of what was to come, and was not really about King David or what anyone who has killed in self dense has done at all. When she said that, it just struck me, the words “there was blood on his hands”, and I didn’t know why.
Sometimes things just stick with you, and you only get part of it until much later. Maybe wasn’t David’s hands, or the hands of anyone who is sinless. It is the blood on their hands, and the blood is growing more each day.
I put my note in the Wall, and in it I prayed for understanding. Is this understanding? That we bleed? Or what? It’s still not completely clear.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M93vGtdFxgc&feature=channel_page
Published by CoyoteDKM on July 23rd, 2009 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »The Situation in Iran
It is just starting.
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/middle_east/article6618756.ece
From The Times
July 2, 2009
Opposition leaders court arrest by defying ‘unlawful Iranian regime’
Mirhossein Mousavi
(Raheb Homavandi/Reuters)
Mir Hossein Mousavi said Iranians had to ‘defend the rights of our people’
Martin Fletcher
Three of Iran’s most prominent opposition leaders flagrantly courted arrest yesterday by denouncing President Ahmadinejad’s Government as illegitimate, one day after the regime said that it would tolerate no more challenges to the election result.
Mir Hossein Mousavi, the former Prime Minister who lost the election, Read the rest of this entry »
Published by CoyoteDKM on July 2nd, 2009 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »Why The Situation in Iran Has to Change, Before it is Too Late
This recent election was not just a sham and a fraud, but it was really an extension of a military takeover of Iran that has been building for the last five years. The ayatollah is not the true power there, the revolutionary guards are.
This article explains it very well.
http://www.spacewar.com/reports/Revolutionary_Guard_gains_power_in_Iran_999.html
Revolutionary Guard gains power in Iran
The 125,000-strong Guard Corps was formed by Ayatollah Ruhollah Khomeini in 1979 as an ideologically pure force to protect the infant Islamic regime following the overthrow of Shah Mohammad Reza Pahlavi.
by Staff Writers
Tehran (UPI) Jun 29, 2009
Iran’s Islamic Revolutionary Guard Corps, Read the rest of this entry »
How the Iranian Cyber Agents Work
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June 28, 2009
Millions of sympathizers around the world looked forward to seeing Iran’s protest movement using the Internet for the first online coup in history. Instead, the Iranian Islamic regime turned the tables: Its Internet police, arguably the largest in the world, pushed “control,” “halt,” “delete” and “send” buttons to activate a deadly weapon for suppressing the movement, as soon as it took to the streets to protest the June 12 election which was believed to have given Mahmoud Ahmadinejad a false victory.
By Sunday, June 28, Read the rest of this entry »
Published by CoyoteDKM on June 29th, 2009 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »Israel Vacation
My Israel trip is almost over, for now, and I want to get my thoughts down before they leave me.
There were a few things that really stand out. One, thoughts about King David. When I left Jerusalem, and Haifa, and when I went into Jordan, I found myself thinking about King David, and why he could not build the temple. He had blood on his hands, so his son, Solomon built the temple. David could not. This thought depressed me. King David was a hero, and a great man, but still there were things there that had a dark side. Catch 22’s. Unwinnable decisions. Defend your people and establish their nation, and become a killer, or refuse to kill and watch everyone around you die.
I was looking at the Jordanian border guards today, and thinking that they just looked like normal people, like you and me. But if war broke out, they would still Read the rest of this entry »
Published by CoyoteDKM on June 27th, 2009 | Filed under Personal | Comment now »It’s Getting Hot Again
Pentagon: Chinese Ships Harassed Unarmed Navy Craft in International Waters
The Pentagon charged that five Chinese ships harassed an unarmed U.S. Navy craft in international waters as the Obama administration protested the action to the Chinese government Monday.
AP
Monday, March 09, 2009
powered by BaynoteWASHINGTON — Chinese ships surrounded and harassed a Navy mapping ship in international waters off China, at one point coming within 25 feet of the American boat and strewing debris in its path, the Defense Department said Monday. The Obama administration said it would continue naval operations in the South China Sea, most of which China considers its territory, and protested to China about what it called reckless behavior that endangered lives.
At one point during the incident Sunday the unarmed USNS Impeccable turned fire hoses on an approaching Chinese ship in self defense, the Pentagon said. At another point a Chinese ship played chicken with the Americans, stopping dead in front of the Impeccable as it tried to sail away, forcing the civilian mariners to slam on the brakes.
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http://www.breitbart.com/article.php?id=D96QRQ780&show_article=1
NKorea puts troops on alert, warns of war danger
Mar 9 08:06 PM US/Eastern
By JEAN H. LEE
North Korea Offers Warning Over Satellite Launch
SEOUL, South Korea (AP) – North Korea put its troops on alert and cut the last hot line to Seoul on Monday as the American and South Korean militaries began joint maneuvers. The communist regime warned that even the slightest provocation could trigger war.
The North stressed that provocation would include any attempt to interfere with its impending launch of a satellite into orbit. U.S. and Japanese officials fear the launch could be a cover for a test of a long-range attack missile and have suggested they might move to intercept the rocket.
“Shooting our satellite for peaceful purposes will precisely mean a war,” North Korea’s military threatened in a statement carried by the official Korean Central News Agency. Any interception attempt will draw “a just, retaliatory strike,” it said.
The North has been on a steady retreat from reconciliation since President Lee Myung-bak took office in the South a year ago. After Lee said the North must continue dismantling its nuclear program if it wants aid, Pyongyang cut ties, suspended joint projects and stepped up its belligerence rhetoric.
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Published by CoyoteDKM on March 10th, 2009 | Filed under War Commentary | Comment now »Memorial Day is Every Day
My Creed, by John Tiller
If you died on the battlefield,
I will remember you.
If you suffered and were alone on some strange and distant field,
I will remember you.
If you sacrificed long ago, so that I and others might live free,
I will remember you.
If you feel that no one remembers what you believed in,
I will remember you.
If you found yourself wounded and afraid, feeling that your efforts were in vain,
I will remember you.
In all that I do, I will represent your struggle, so that others might look upon it,
and remember.
